My First Photoshoot

I had my first photoshoot done on Tuesday.
The pictures were taken by Guernsey Photos and located at Fort George (Guernsey)

To say I have piled on a lot of weight recently due to health issues and have been quite tired due to medication along with the fact I hate people taking pictures of me and usually try to avoid it at all costs....i'm quite pleased with the photos :)

The guy who took them (Mark) was lovely and he kept making me laugh!  But no I loved every second of it.  The best part is I didn't pay a penny as it's a shoot he wanted to do and chose me as his model.

Here are a few of the pictures.

http://www.guernseyphotos.com/

Photography

Just going to post a few random pics of mine.  I'm not a professional photographer or anything.  They are simply just photos I have taken either on a digital camera or on my iPhone that I like.

I tend to take a lot of pictures of the sky.  It's just something i'm often drawn to.

Comments/Feedback welcome.  Thanks!

Sat In My Room...

 Bored out of my tiny little mind at the moment.

Really not sure what to do.  These tablets i'm on messed my sleeping pattern up so I can go from awake to zonked in minutes.

Found a channel on Youtube....been around a little while but only just found it.  It makes me laugh...hard.
It's a thing called Equals Three....or =3
So frickin funny.  Ray is a legend.

I have a huge blister on the back of my right foot which is pure agony.  Been struggling to walk on it most of the day which sucks.  Thank you new trainers.  Thanks a bunch.

Might just upload some random pics...for the hell of it.  Keeps me busy for a couple of minutes.

Recent pics of me.

My best friend Helen and I when we flew our "bee kite".

Kelsey, Me and Nadine in Bournemouth on my 23rd Birthday.

















Laura and I - Oct 30th @ Red Onion.

Me with my cousin Julie in Blackpool - March 2011.

My Guinea Pigs

Just a random new piccy of my Guinea Piggies all sat together.

They were having a play and a munch in a paddling pool in the garden for a few mins.

I have put names on the pic but just incase it's not very clear:

Left to Right - Truffles, Bo, Smudge & Muffin.

Neopets!!

I am now 23 years old...and thanks to my best friend Helen (who may I add is 22) I am now playing Neopets again....7 and a half years after I first created my account!!

Basically when Helen was 14 and I was 15...she was at school and I was at College.  Her school had banned a lot of the websites we used to contact each other.  Using a mobile phone back then was a lot trickier in school...trust me.  Now teachers just seem to accept it these days.

We also had a website we used called www.coolcamels.com (which is still going!) where we both created a camel and used the messaging system on there to contact each other on lunches etc.  However this site didn't always load properly at her school so sometimes we had issues.  That was when Helen suggested a site she had joined a while before...called Neopets.

So I created a random pet....a "Kacheek" and named it Cheeky.  That name was already in use (didn't see that one coming) so it became "cheeky20474"
On there we used "NeoMail" and it worked like a charm.

I started looking around the site more to cure boredom in lunches and on an evening at home.  The games on there became addictive.  You earn NeoPoints for the games you play...which you can then buy alsorts of things around the site.  Battle equipment, Books, Train your pets, Buy things for your gallery, Buy a home, Make a shop to sell things to other users...etc etc etc.

I loved it!  Helen and I became a bit obsessed...and even my then-boyfriend created an account to get in on it!  Haha!  It was great fun though.  But then you get older, life gets in the way, you (hopefully) become more mature and "grow out" of these "kiddy" things...

It wasn't until I went to Newcastle to see Helen that one night she randomly said "OH MY GOD REMEMBER COOLCAMELS?!" and dived onto the computer and typed in the URL.  We laughed and started talking about our camels names we made up that were beyond strange.

Hers was "Romanusfarticuscamelus" - Now if I remember this was when we were playing a game called Caesar 3 and we added US and ICUS on the end of everything to make it sound more "Roman".
So the words Roman, Fart and Camel became the above.  See how mature we were back then? Haha.

Mine...as I was a goth back then....was "Gothica-Leigh"
Don't ask.

But our camels were pretty awesome.  Our accounts were deleted due to lack of use after a few years but then Helen shouted "OH MY GOD AND NEOPETS!!!" and typed it in.  Her account had been deleted.

I desperately tried to remember my user login details and sure enough...after a few attempts....low and behold my account was still active!  We couldn't believe it and loads of memories came back.  Like when Helen was determined to get every stamp possible for her Stamp Collection on the game.  Practically impossible!  She used to beg me to try and buy her stamps on it if I could...and I got as many as I could find for her.  wasn't cheap either may I add!

We used to have battles in the battledome with our pets.  She had a Flotsam called Flipper...and she used to fight it against Cheeky20474.  However she had crappy weapons whereas mine did a lot of damage so she never won!  But it used to say not to use inappropiate language whilst in battle...(you could talk to each other)...but Helen used to shout really abusive messages when she was losing and we always got away with it!

And then the games.  It's crazy how little things brought back so many memories.  Some of my favourites:

Meerca Chase 1 & 2, Turmac Roll, Kass Basher, Snowmuncher, Destruct-O-Match 2, Ultimate Bullseye 2, Tombola, Wheel of Excitement, Pyramids, Cheat!, Hasee Bounce......and many more!

We started playing them all over again...and we ended up being on the computer until 12.15am playing these games!  But it was just so fun.

And I don't care if I am 23...I will still play them as it's a good laugh.  Neopets has so many users...many of them youngsters...I feel I can now offer them advice on things.  However there are hundreds of parents on Neopets too who play it whilst their kids are at school!  It's just fun!

So if you have Neopets...feel free to add me as a friend! :)  dizzydiana14

My page link:  http://www.neopets.com/userlookup.phtml?user=dizzydiana14

And a piccy of my pet for the hell of it...

A Few Pictures Of Mine

A handful of pictures I took whilst in the UK.

Taken In Durham.

Durham Cathedral.

Taken In Durham.

MetroCentre.

Angel Of The North.

Duncan & Helen
(I stayed with them)

Newcastle

Wow it's been a while hasn't it?
Then again I couldn't even remember my log in for this so had to sort that out lol.

Things haven't been so great lately.

I am currently unemployed after leaving my job.  Basically I totally lost it.  I just walked into work and broke down crying.  Ended up being signed off sick for a week...then went away to Bournemouth to see my friend Nadine and couldn't enjoy myself thanks to the new medication i'm on...and thought I should take some time out from work to get better.  So here I am.

Yes money is a bit of a problem but...health comes first.  I'll probs get a Saturday job or part-time just to get a little bit of money in to cover my loan costs which finish this year.

But yeah I was keeping a lot of feelings to myself and the girls at work were horrible to me.  They made it pretty obvious they didn't want me in their "clique" and avoided me at all times.  When I tried to make conversation they didn't want to know.  So after reporting them to the manager and being told something would be done about it as management had also witnessed it I thought "ah good this WILL get sorted"....and then the manager left.  The new manager comes along and says "try and forget what has already happened and start a fresh"

Excuse me?  So I am supposed to just ignore 2 (almost 3) months of bullying with a click of the fingers?  NO.

So after I walked in on Monday morning after I had been signed off...and not a single member of staffed said hello or asked how I was etc...and one even turned their head away from me when I had to sit next to them (they even turned their chair) I broke down and said enough is enough and handed my notice in that I had pre-typed.

When I left on Friday 2 people said bye.  The new manager gave me flowers and a card...and the woman who trained me called Angie who was lovely (but i rarely saw her) said bye and it was a shame i was leaving. However when I told her why...she hit the roof.  But the main person that bullied me had also bullied others.  I had a great job but was at the wrong branch with the wrong people.  The other branches where I had been training...the staff were lovely.  Got on with all of them and loved every minute.  I asked for a transfer but it wasn't possible and not guaranteed for a long time. It's a shame but I couldn't cope any longer.

If I didn't already suffer from severe depression then I might have been able to have brushed it off a bit better.  But unfortunately it was all too much.

The medication I am on....I was on the anti-depressant Fluoxetine for a few months but it wasn't really working.  So the doc has now put me on Venlafaxine which is stronger.  But it has made me go quite strange.

I find myself feeling confused a lot.  Not quite knowing what i'm doing.  I think about Suicide more often which is worrying.  But it also makes my sleeping patterns messed up.  I'm pooped during the day and open-eyed at night.  It's all a bit messed up.  So might ask for something else...but we shall see.

Things got even worse just recently when someone upset me a lot.  So I asked my best friend in Newcastle if I could stay with her for a few days.  It was short notice but when I told her what had happened she said to go up and it would be fine.  So I booked it for the next week.  I had never travelled on my own before.  I have a thing with planes.  I hate them.  I always assume I am going to die on one.  So I always travel with someone.  But this time I was alone.  I went to Manchester Airport (From Guernsey) which was about an hour and 20 mins.  Then a 3 hour train ride up to Newcastle.  By 1pm I was at the station and there she was.  I instantly felt better.  She made me feel so welcome and I had a blast.

I also travelled down to Durham to meet someone I have been chatting to for 2 years called Jon.  He was lovely.  He showed me round Durham and the Cathedral.  It's stunning.

Saw the Angel of The North yesterday before I got the train and plane back home.  It was a really nice visit and i'm going back next month.  I shall also be travelling down to Huddersfield to see my family for a couple of days.

Then in September I am seeing Lee Evans Live in London.  Should be good.

I shall try and post on the blog more now I know my log in lol.

Toodles xx